Been a year... to not mumbling out my crazy head. See how much I've grown? There really isn't anything significant because it's an unclear measurement & an invalid guideline. Nothing really different from last year, still hundreds of music to bore, hundreds of books to not finish, hundreds questions & procrastinations. Hundreds hectic days & errors, yet also hundreds revisions. Do by that I became much better? Not really. Even worse, I think?
Well, aren't we all live inside of hundred of procrastinations? They literally said something like"The cost of procrastination is the life you could've live" that struck, got me thinking, but never got me to take any action in return. Also I've heard something like Change is scary but so is staying the same, got me smirk a little. Funny where I might not get it right where parts need to change and where parts need to stay the same.
But I still have something pursued, achieved, something whose change can be seen. Starting something new blindly has never been easy for me, I guess it grew inside of me. Within a year, without knowing the right way, what goals you want to achieve, what kind of treatments need to be done. Blatant stupidity, swallowed shame, getting comfortable with the uncomfortable. Deeper understanding of boundaries. Deeper understanding of emotion can be really contagious, take care yours first before absorbing others. Hundred hundred thoughts, and how your world is just based on the reflection of your thought. Respect other perception. Learn with action. Redefining life: build and iterate, taking action, get feedback to yourself, revise.
In short, It brings most of the understanding of life.
In terms of respecting other perception, respecting other rights. Or just aware of someone's rights and let them believe what they believe. Understand that not everything needs to be argued and let that be in that way. For an instance, In the midst of busy days, where everyone has been given the best and drained of it. We are indeed under high pressure. Where doing the right thing can be wrong, and doing the wrong thing can be right. Funny how everything is biased and unclear. And blaming each other as if is the only solution. At that time the lesson I could really applied, which to put your feet to other shoes.
And I guess, do befriend with rejection. Someone really ask me Am I too nice - I could really see how much emotion weighs from her stare. The bottom of my heart says No, you are at least better than the others. It was when I learn a concept of Bare Minimum really can be applied real life. It was then that I believed the measure really existed, even though it wasn't clear.
Deeper understanding of a line: Not everything in the world that weighs you down is yours to carry.
Yeah, that's all for now. Oh, I never knew I could really share a contented content. At least for me. At last, these whole thing happened from hundred moments I cherished within a year.
See you later, I guess?
